My head is spinning, but my heart is in the right place

Bored

2005-06-04T19:52:38Z

k8erbugg @ 2005-05-18T15:51:00

2005-05-18T20:18:13Z

L A S T P E R S O N
You kissed: Dan
You hugged: Mick
You imed: Sara
You yelled at: My mom
What are you listening to right now? Yellowcard
Who is the last person that called you?: Mallory
Who is the last person you argued with? Mom
Who is the last person you apologized to? Dan
Where do you want to get married?: I really dont know yet.
How many buddies are online right now?: 12
What would you change about yourself?: my ambition
I N F O R M A T I O N
Name:Katherine (katie) Lynn McNeill
Single or taken: taken

R E L A T I O N S H I P S
Who are your best friends?: Mallory and Jenni
You have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: yep

F A S H I O N | S T U F F
Where is your favorite place to shop: Old Navy
Any tattoos or piercings: No tatoos.6 piercings

F A V O R I T E S
Color: orange
Food: Chicken Alfredo from Olive Graden
Boys names: Christopher, Matthew
Girls names: Gracie, Alixis
Subjects in school: Writing.
Animal: Panda Bear

H A V E | Y O U | E V E R
Given anyone a bath? yes
Smoked?: Yes
Bungee jumped: Heck no
Made yourself throw up?: yes when I was really sick and I was about to anyways
Skinny dipped?: oh yes
Ever been in love?: yes
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: yes! my mom is an idiot
Pictured your crush naked?: yes...
Actually seen your crush naked?: yep
Cried when someone died?: yes
Lied: Yes
Fallen for your best friend?: yes
Been rejected?: yes
Rejected someone?: yes
Used someone?: yeah once
Done something you regret?: yeah..

C U R R E N T
Clothes: white swets, my brothers shirt and flip flops
Music: Dashboard Confessional
Make-up: normal stuff
Desktop picture: Sandy
Book you're reading: The Wedding
CD in player: 3 Doors Down
DVD in player: I don't know
Event: ?

A R E | Y O U
Understanding: very, probably overly
Open-minded: usually
Arrogant: have been
Insecure: oh yes
Random: oh yeah.. too much in fact
Hungry: not really
Smart: more then people think..
Moody: yeah, but not overly, just in certian things
Hard working: when I set my mind to it
Healthy: no
Organized: usually.. not lately
Shy: at first
Difficult: depends
Attractive: i dont think so
Bored easily: i'm bored right now taking this damn thing
Responsible: usually
Obsessed: heck no
Angry: sometimes
Sad: sometimes
Happy: most of the time

W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A
Kill: no one
Slap: my brother
Get really wasted with?: I dont want to get really wasted
Get high with: I dont want to get high

R A N D O M
I wonder: Why do people act the way they do?
I love: a select few
In the morning I am: Sleepy
All you need is: hugs and cuddles
Love: Love hard and put your all into it, if you get hurt at least you can know that you put yourself out there.
I dream about: some really odd things

W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R
Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi
Flowers or candy: Flowers.
Tall or short: Short

W H O
Makes you laugh the most: my wonderful friends
Makes you smile: anyone who is nice to me
Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: Dan
Gives you the most wedgies?: I don't get them often

D O | Y O U | E V E R
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: not really
Save conversations: nope
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: for a day
Wish you were younger: sometimes
Cried because someone said something to you?: yes...

N U M B E R
Of times I have had my heart broken: 2
Of boys I've kissed: 8
Of CD's I own: I don't keep count
Of scars on my body: I've got a few

Y O U R | T H O U G H T S
I know: a lot more then people give me credit for.
I want: to know the future.
I have: many fears.
I wish: I could fix everything with a flick of the wrist.
I hate: it when people prejudge you.
I fear: my family and friends dying.
I hear: lots of things.
I search: I don't ...??

Its been a while.. I stole this from someone

2005-05-12T19:58:33Z

*My ABC's*
A - Age you got your first kiss: 14 1/2
B - Band listening to right now: Dashboard Confessional
C - Crush: Dan...
D - Dad's name: Step -- Rich
E - Easiest person to talk to: hmm.. a lot of people
F - Favorite bands at the moment: Dashboard Confessional
G - Gummy worms or gummy bears?: niether.
H - Hometown: Macomb somthing
I – Instruments: none.. I'm musically challenged
J - Junior High: Holland Woods
K - Kids: not right now
L - Longest car ride ever: Myrtle Beach
M - Mom's name: Jamie
N - Nicknames: dumbass haha I don't know, I've got a few
O - One wish: hmm......
P - Phobia[s]: feet and tears
Q - Quote: "So you want a heart? You don't know how lucky you are not to have one. Hearts will never be practical until they are made unbreakable." -The Wizard of Oz
R - Reason to smile: When someone hugs you
S - Song you sang last: Holla Back .. I hate that song but it was lodged in my brain
T - Time you woke up [today]: 6:10 I woke up really late
U - Unknown fact about me: I complain about cleaning.. but I secretly love it .. shhhh
V - Vegetable you hate: Colliflower
W - Worst habit(s): I pick other peoples noses .. lol
X - X-rays you've had: arm, foot, and ear.. long story lol Mal knows
Y - Yummy food: Brownie Batter Blizzard
Z - Zodiac sign: Sagitarous ..I can't spell it

Bored...

2005-01-13T02:22:19Z

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Hey all, I haven't updated in sooo long and I'm bored out of my mind right now listening to my mom sing and vacuum.

I haven't been doing a lot lately. I've mostly just been hang out wiht Corey and all. He is my favorite. So yeah, we've been good. But anyways... I don't know I guess I feel a little hurt lately by someone. I kinda feel like she doesn't want to hang out with me anymore for some unknown reason. Ok Jillian you gotta now I'm talking about you...lol. But seriously, I really feel like stupid or somthing, I dont know. I just mean I've been trying, and I really want to hang out. Anyways, enough about that, I don't wanna get all sappy. lol Um Mal and I hung out this past weekend. That was a blast.. we hadn't hung out in quite some time. My mom and I hung out today, because for some reason she is being soo goofy today, I love it. She cried from the news.. the tsuniami <spelling?> and then I told her to read this thing my cousin wrote on the computer, and she bawled. lol it was soo funny, I mean ofcourse it was one of those loud crys so it was funny.

Anyways, on a serious note...
On the 31 of this month well be exactly a year since my Grandma passed away. I think I've held myself togeather pretty well since shes been gone, shes always taught me to be a strong women and not take any shit form anyone. I've tried, real hard to be strong even tho at times I really want to break down. I'm just glad that 2004 has come to an end tho. And with time everything will be better.

Thats all I got right now ... I will try to keep up on my updates.. but I doubt I will..

*Katie*

blah

2004-12-18T19:30:51Z

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

I can't get that kid off my mind. Am I stupid for feeling this way?

who knew

2004-12-03T15:19:04Z


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good

2004-12-01T23:44:59Z

Well things have been doing better, and I hope they stay that way because I dont want to deal with crap anymore. I'm still pissed about some shit but nothing I can't get over. Anyways, these past few days I haven't been doing a lot. But I still am better then I was before.

Hey I will write more later..

*KT*

blah

2004-11-29T01:40:27Z

I'm feeling a little better since my horrible birthday. These past few days have been hell with my mom, but I guess you could I am partly to blame for it. I'm just so worn out and drained from this whole thing. I haven't said anything that shes wanted to hear so I think she chose to ignore it all, which is fine I guess, I mean I think I can move on without having to talk to her anymore. She doesn't need to know everything right? I mean hell alot of my friends dont even know a lot of shit that really bothers me. It's usually just easier to grin and bear it. Smile and pretend nothings wrong.

cha

2004-11-27T01:26:06Z

Offically the worst brithday ever ... but what the hell ever like i really give shit

ah poo

2004-11-24T03:29:51Z

Well who knows... whatever happens ... happens. You can only hope everything turns out in your favor.

better

2004-11-21T02:02:07Z

I feel so much better lately. I don't know what it was before but somthing was just knocking me on my ass and making me sad, but not anymore. I feel all better. Oh my mom and I went out today and she wanted the new Destiny Childs CD ... I know shes a freaking mom and she gets that of all things. Anyways I got the Eminem CD and Sum 41... they both are soooo awesome! What else did do..?? Well nothing really yet. Jillian was supossed to come over but she was feeling under the wheather so we didnt hang out. And my brother left for the night so I think I'm doing nothing .. oh well gotta go

*Me*

ugh

2004-11-19T00:59:17Z

It's my birthday in a few days, but I dont really give a shit. I never make a big deal about my birthday. Either does anyone else and thats fine with me, I dont like all that. But I dont know shits just been really getting to me lately and I'm all overly emotional. I'm mesed up right now. What I need to do is sit down and talk to my mom... even tho I don't have the balls to. I dont know I will go and talk to you all later ...

*Me*

:-/

Who knows...

2004-11-09T15:15:20Z

Well I am sitting here in 3rd hour really not wanting to do my work. I am writting this one for that girl Jillian! haha Oh we are so going to the Beacons game on Wednesday, I so can't wait to just hang out with her. I need some girl time...lol ... even tho We already talked about this ... boy time is good too ... lol. Anyways I'm not really doing anything listening to my MP3 player. And Rob is trying to get me into trouble. (He's singing and blaming it on me, Shiedener *spell check* isn't buying it) ... lol. Anyways .... Now I'm bored off my butt. Last night I got a flash of, I dont know what, I just couldn't breath for a second. But thanks Jillian you helped me, I was just being dumb... lol. Anyways ... I'm going to because, Well I dont know why, but I dont have anything else to say...

*KATIE*

Nothing Important

2004-11-09T01:02:43Z

Fallen Once...

You made me fall with just one kiss.
I loved the feeling of falling when I knew it was with you.
When I landed ever so graciously, you weren't there.
My smile faded and I could hear my heart breaking when I knew you weren't ever going to be there.
I knew I was kidding myself from the start.
I knew I should've pinched myself, you were too unreal...
What I flet made me scared.
Something had to go wrong, it was all to good.
My heart just had higher hopes than yours.
I fell, I fell hard and bruised my heart just enough to make myslef a little smarter.

Your mistakes don't define who you are...
^
I heard Oprah say that..lol

Hola!

2004-11-08T15:15:15Z

Hey, I haven't updated in a bit. Nothing overly exciting has happened tho. On Saturday I baby-sat for like 6 hours!! Then when I came home I didn't do a whole lot ... couldn't get a hold of Jillian ... lol kidding Jillian ... you know I love ya. Then Kyle and Matt came over for like a hour. I was so fun, they're such funny guys... G UNIT! hahah. Even tho Kyle and I know both know K UNIT is the best ... lol. Anyways, after they left I took my ass to bed. Sunday I woke up and got ready to do my avd. comp. project over at Mary's house. It was easy and notta a big deal. Then after that my Dustin and I went to see The Incredibles (I think I spelled that wrong). OH my word tho, that movie was so great, I was like the only old kid in there .. I was laughing my ass off!! Then I got a text from Jillian saying that she called .. because my mom has been known to forget to tell me wehn people called ... even tho I did find it written down this time ... haha Jillian. Anyways I called Jillian and she updated me on her weekend and I did the same. Her mom hurt her back so .. Jillian I hope she gets better!! After that I went to my room and went to bed ... I know my life isn't exciting thats probably why I never update...

Mucho love~

*ME*

...why

2004-11-02T00:16:19Z

It takes something like this to smack you i nthe face and realize everyone who loves you is important. Another death among the class of 06. BK was loved and will be missed by many. Remeber to say I love you to everyone that loves you, because you never know when you'llget to see them agian.

Don't hate anyone ... life is way to short for all that sadness.

Tell everyone how you feel each and everyday you see them..... you won't regret it

RIP- BK Loved by many, missed by all

Blah

2004-10-20T21:40:10Z

It's been awhile agian since I've updated, probably because nothing exciting has happened, but what can ya do. My mom is really getting on my nerves tho, I mean I love her to death butsh annoying as hell. She keeps getting mad at my brother because hes being a bad kid in school, and like taking it out on Rich and I. Whatever tho she'll get ouver it ... always does. Oh geez what else has happened .. hmmm nothing. Oh well I'm not very exciting. Oh on friday I am going to the last football game with Jillian. Then on saturday couldn't tell ya what I'm doing. Oh but yay I get to baby-sit on sunday ... not fun. So you should all call my cell on sunday. Anwyas gotta go .. bye

I dont know ..

2004-10-17T01:08:12Z

I guess I should update .. its been awhile. Well yesterdauy was a blast at the family *party*. Who knew you could have that much fun with your family. But hey my cousins are the best! Alecia brought her hottie boyfriend, Alex got really drunk, and Kyle and his awesome date made out in the back of the limo. Mal and I talked with Alex while Kyle and Amy made out. It was really fun tho ... Alex is awesome as hell hes really gotta be my favorite. lol Anyways ... Mal and I dranl a little bit and my moms frined was all getting me stuff .. not that I couldn't have my cousin get it for me, but it was all good. Anyways, we all had a blast. Today I think the most productive thing I did was shower, and I didnt even do that until like 1:30! lol Anyway tomorrow I think I may be visiting my cousin and aunt before they got back to California. But who knows ...

:-*

Who knows...

2004-10-11T23:47:44Z

Oh Goodness..I got rid of everything before just because I wanted to. Anwyas, this weekend is the "party" .. yay .. not. I really dont want to go but will for my mom. But saturday for sure will be a blast. I'm haging out with that girl Jillian, and hopfully Steve will be there. lol. Even if we dont see Steve were still hanging out. And sunday I have not a clue what I'm doing. Anyway all of those nice comments from before are all gone and I hope I don't get more. And thanks to the people who stood up for me. But we really don't want to talk about that... today I had a doctors appt. I hate the doctors. But you dont want to hear about that. Wow nothing exciting is happening to me right now. Oh some kid all picked me up on third hour tho! I was freaking out! I was like put me down!! And then he did on his lap!! I was like Whooooaaa no! So Schinder yelled at him. Then I didnt get a chance to talk to Jillian at luch so I will have deffinatly have to tomorrow!! And Eric Cook sits next to me now in 4th hour, because he came back from PH. Then Richs brother from Virgina came over and likes the F word alot and Rich told him to cut it out because his little neohew was around. Anway I know this is boring as hell .. but I dont care ..

*Katie*